The following link to a Dr. Les Carter podcast explains why Mr. Luna has been trying to micromanage and silence me.
For the purpose of this constant hunt down I left a blog yesterday. Now expecting backlash for this post about being objective and the need to find deeper meaning for development purposes and to form a solid core identity. well, it is being a truth teller and guess what you can bet
The micromanaging, manipulation, smear campaign and hate will keep going especially after the last post.
There is going to be no looking within, instead, just a emotionally dysregulated, angry, aggressive, backlash
that's for sure. this video explains why: 12 minutes
Tuesday Feb. 18 1;00 AM in the morning
Bad experience Sunday night stomach hurting then all day Monday kind of out of it laying around all day didn't work, didn't play the guitar, nothing stomach is still hurting tonight as I write this follow-up. What did I expected this after writing what I felt was a constructive post you three days ago.
I was reading some articles and interviews from Charlie Beck, I thought it was cool he used to keep a motocross helmet in his office at work. He had raced when younger and kept it as a hobby even later in life. Motocross 2nd toughest sport on the planet next to soccer they say anyhow. Definitely after all the racing I did before, during, and after high school every week was a big part of my life, and a major character sculpting experience, This sport will make you mentally and physically tough. I worked during this time and if I wanted to race I had to buy the motorcycles and pay for the entry fee's all of it. Jarrod Spencer's book Mind of the Athlete specifies the importance of having hobbies that are important to you and how important this is for your mind. I enjoyed reading up on Mr. Beck and his discussing thing's of what he learned regarding the dynamics of his police work experience in, of, and how he'd felt about his career at the LAPD. One thing he'd mentioned was the importance he felt of leaving the organization better than when he'd arrived there. I can see this since as he invested a lot of time there and was paid a lot so I think it is great he belied in his work there and upon his retiring that he left the organization better than for worse.
Well the character I am not sure of the outlaw practices being used from the man that has had it out for me since being promoted in 2007 and still does, difficult to believe. I have mentioned it before that Villaneuva stated that he had set a policy in place prohibiting the use of outlaw practices, and that he did so because he wanted to do the right thing. The new person come in claiming to address the issue with tattoo's and deputy gangs, but not sure that going underground using outlaw practices is not ganging up on people, sure seems like it to me. Which surely is not making the organization better than when Villanueva was there. Villanueva specifically mentioned he was concerned about constitutional rights being broken for Angelinos with this new person coming in to take his job and also feared that the principles of democracy would be at threat as well. Out of curiosity did Mr. Luna have any hobbies or did he play football or any sports as a means of development in before ar after graduating high school? Difficult not to ask seems the guy is just all about kicking ass. Came from a top-down hierarchy where whoever kicks the most ass gets to the top. Just the personality? I do not think so not with the rage he exhibits behind the scenes the need for control, micromanaging, and immediate retribution. I watch video with Gentle on my mind with Glenn Campbell what a talent gone to Alzheimer's disease. Life is so short to take it for granted, to be so fanatical and crazy where does it come from?
guitar solo in the middle lots of hard work and practice so talented
wide awake tonight 2:40 AM they messed me up with something good.
I endured the longest wrath from Luna, longest hate fest ever and did nothing but psychoeducate, learn, look within and become something better. I did not take my suffering for granted.
See this podcast as a reckoning of my experience, synapses are only as strong as the load that has been place upon them like muscle. The absolute hell, psychological turmoil, and emotional abuse that this man has put me through rising above from deeper meaning taken the cognitive approach not an emotional response is an example of solid mental health. Let's sit down and I can tell you all that I have learned from it all, they have listened to me, instead taken what I say reacted emotionally on impulse in risky a behavior to direct physical harm towards me. Really, I am the one getting punked being isolated, suppressed, experiencing containment, smear campaigns, being targeted daily, and now it is just get rid of Perrin I have no need for him now. Wasn't I the one you used to punk and bully as your political side-show to show everyone how tuff you were to climb up the ladder? Fulfilling the need from what still exists in Long Beach in the form of a large hate group designated by the reinforcement that you needed for the external validation for the sense of superiority, and the absolute power/control that you seek to and need to thrive on.
I was an in-group member seen the pain of the dad who chose not to partake in the extremes yet had a partner that did. This is the time staying out late drinking coming home middle of the night wanting to hook up stirring up a fight eventually leaving the bar and not coming home mom having two nervous breakdowns. From leaders that did not expect and hold people in the workforce to a higher bar of accountability? Yes, I can tell you my dad did not lose his intuition, his self-awareness, nor his individuality of character but did have anger management problems and would snap and break shit out of nowhere. Being the minority in the group causes dissonance and undue, unneeded stress and pressure, but not nearly to the degree that people in the workforce experience in groupthink scenarios. That is to become externally driven, lose your internal locus of control to that of the group validation through polarized ideologies and becoming addicted to extreme risky behaviors. Maladaptive stress response that mimics PTSD in the form of neurophysiological change from too much stress.
I have spent all my hours making to make sense of the cruelty that has been directed at me and had to learn the neural and behavioral sciences in the effort to do so. That is ok at CSULB while working on my bachelor's in psychology I had a goal to take the clinical approach in my studies and wanted to treat type 4 DSM cases. Is not going to do me much good if Robert Luna takes me out, which I am posting the Peterson link below because it gives an ideal description of exactly what I am stuck in the middle of and having to deal with. Never given as much of a warning. I am sure I would have went and finished my masters but instead did about as much since finishing CSULB in December 2021.
I will say it 1000 times over I am not the problem I am here to help. I am in flow state, no anxiety, anger or hate. I understand the behavioral neurosciences like the back of my hand, and vilify a broad perspective of micro/macro level interactions from a mental health perspective from multiple levels from a large array of biologists, neuroscientists psychiatrists and psychologists. This is why God put this brutal narcissist in my life. From a Lawrence Kohlberg three stages of moral reasoning I am at the 3rd stage of moral development seeing beyond (a shortsighted burned-out perspective) a view that is refreshing in that I am interdependent and able to put differences aside for the bigger picture and the common goal that goes way beyond my own self. Honestly intellectual and emotionally mature at the functional capacity of an adult brain is to experience significance and purpose in many area's of life. looking at mature state and the autobiographical self, one of creativity, imagination, reason, language, extended memory, and anticipated future. I have sacrificed and put forth a lot of time and effort and have way too much to offer as a result to be taken out by some deluded, sadistic madman. My focus is development and mental health to seek objective reality/truth from a structuralist approach at the broader micro/macro level from a multi- dimensional approach. And will research write papers and find answers to problems that most people just scratch their chin at with no answer nor any outcome of positive results.
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